Sunday, June 14, 2020

marriage without love, is it possible ?

Benjamin Franklin Quote: “Where there's marriage without love, there will be love without marriage.” Have I made good decision married to a very decent guy if I don’t feel anything more than respect and friendly feelings to him? I was 24 at that time, i was into broke relationship for few times. I’ve fallen in love several times before but the guys either turned out to be married, and i had very unstable mind. I would love to listen to my heart but even till today my heart is used to making the wrong decisions. I have met a guy (my husband) and been friends for few years. He is very decent and cool. He talked less and did not know how to show and express his care and love. But I simply don’t feel anything for him. We've been married for 6 years and i kept thinking on my previous relationship. I've left my true love, L due to family disagreement , i rather put my love aside until now he passed away , he still have not know the real reason why i left him. how i am going to survive emotionally? Of course it possible. But then we should be aware of what we are doing, and how both of us arrange our life around a marriage with no love in it. People marrying without love for different reasons. marry without loving each other, we should be learn to love each other along the way. Guess that is as good or better than loving each other when marrying and learn to hate each other. To people out there, the best is to marry with love, stay married with love and die without loosing that precious love. But as we know, reality fail when life hit us.Either you marry with or without love, a marriage is created along the way. It's your life and your marriage. And it's even possible you will be happy. Not all the time, of course, but you can do a lot yourself to stay happy. Insya Allah , will survive along with current relationship , 6 years and still counting. Al-fatihah L.S.I - 7/8/1990- 7/10/2018 Jumpa kau di syurga L !

Wednesday, February 27, 2019

My Convocation Journey Yeay Finally!!!!!

Assalamualaikum, Its been long time i haven't update my blog. I just wanna share with u guys my convocation day last year. Although its bit late but i want to keep those memories here. It was a truly painful journey of 6 years and half however i still manage to passed all the examination and yeay convo finally. From being a single person, being dumped, broke up in a relationship i was being so down and pitiful. To remove and get rid all those unneccessary feeling and heartbreaking things, i decided to pursue my study again. 6 years and half journey and 1 year and half of special leave. From single women until being a mother of two kids , finally i managed to end up my journey. Alhamdulillah.

Monday, September 22, 2014

My wedding Photo 16/08/2014

Hi semua,

Those adalah my wedding photo which i think it was extremely awesome..

Me n myself telah selamat diijabkabulkan dengan my best friend,good friend yang sekarang dan jadi suami i... It is unbelievable.

My ceremony has been held on 16/8/14 solemnization also being held on the same day. I feel very blessed and what i have planned for my wedding was totally happened.

I feel very proud and awesome wearing this wedding dress from Ameera Mishael Wedding Boutique which is located in Bukit Indah Ampang Selangor. My hubby looked so charm wearing the wedding clothes.

I also feel good to share with you my wedding photo taken by Erwin Aszuwanni which i trust on his capabilities towards photography field. He was very professional during the scene and he put all his effort towards  our ceremony. I felt no regret cooperating with him and his crews and perhaps we could have the time together again , maybe our maternity photography... Hopefully.

I would like to thanks to all my family, my mama and my mak for being very supportive and helpful, to our relatives, friends and to those who keep praying our happiness to the moon and the back.

I hope for those out there will keep praying for us, until Jannah and up to heaven.
I hope that this marriage would change my life as a whole and make me appreciate what is actually the real meaning of love.

Thanks and see you again in the near future.

Wednesday, January 8, 2014

new environment, new friends, new bf, new status, NEW NINA...


It is a tough day today as I 've been very busy since i'd changed to my new subject matter today obviously shows that its all new and i've changed to someone new.

New environment, friends, bf, status and NINA

I am very thankful to Allah SW.T for giving me the opportunity to feel rewarded. I admit that in some other way, I am not a very good person though. But You are always there for me, giving me a chance to continue and move on with my life.

I'm still surprised for what I've gone through for this past 2 years. I had the spirit and motivated by people surrounding me to pursue my studies in BBA and MBA. With God's willing, I was accepted as Government Officer which i had thought that it was not meant for me before.

I've met someone accidentally and he had proposed me after few years we known each other. Luckily, he is very understanding, relax, and the most important thing he accept me as the way I am. I am very comfortable with him, and until today I have no issues that can be drag on... We prefer 2 way communication so that each of us could express our feeling and thoughts and avoid to drag on any problems occurred.

We get engaged and being blessed by both families and no word can describe our feelings which I feel very blissful.

I feel blessed today because I have changed to someone new which I think it is a hard for me to get through until this stage. I have grown too strong after being dumped, insulted by a person that I love before. Alhamdullilah, it is a way of life, valuable experiences and precious moment for me to be a better person for coming future. I have never blamed anyone for what had happened , I guessed it is a test from Allah and its gradually come with gift that make me better person now..

What i can say now, I hope I will gain more happiness and blessed by Allah S.W.T ahead as I'm ready to be a good wife, mother, and as a Muslim.




Tuesday, October 16, 2012

Story of R.I.P Amanda Michelle sad.....

Yesterday, i heard a story about a girl hung herself because of mental depression and being bullied by online friend and schoolmates.please read this .....we share together . a young teen who lived in my province took her own life the other day due to severe bullying. she was bullied online and in real life to the point where others taunted and attacked her at her school. i just want everyone here to know that bullying is 100% not okay and it is wrong to cause hurt to others. whether it is physical, emotional, or mental abuse does not matter- it is abuse nonetheless and will not be tolerated. this is a human being who was tormented to the point of suicide. another thinking and breathing person just like yourselves, who had feelings and emotions, dreams and hopes, friends and family. would you want to be treated as such? obviously not- so why treat others this way? why would you want to express such cruelty unto another, and not kindness and respect? this is unacceptable, wrong, and totally inhumane. i will not condone or support bullying, especially on online networks such as tumblr where it is easy to threaten others anonymously. any hate sent to my blog will simply be deleted upon receiving, and i advise that everyone else do the same. do not give these people the satisfaction of knowing that they may have hurt you. it is my wish that whoever has been disturbed enough to send anonymous hate to others over the internet can resolve whatever mental problems they may have. it’s not right to bully others to make yourself feel good. to share love is what normally feels rewarding, and i hope that you will all realize this one day. and to anyone else out there who feels neglected, hurt, or looked down upon- please don’t feel upset. myself and others are here for you if you need someone to talk to. i feel extreme empathy for any human who has been hurt by another and i wish to replace those unhappy emotions with love instead. even in your most lonely moments, i can assure you that there are still people in this world that love and care for you, even if you feel the opposite. reach out and let others know what you are feeling so that they can help you. let whoever is teasing you know that it is NOT OKAY to express ANY kind of abuse to another being. your voice will be heard.

marriage without love, is it possible ?

Benjamin Franklin Quote: “Where there's marriage without love, there will be love without marriage.” Have I made good decision married ...